So, is it so terrible to laugh when you are sick? I don't think so. I am involved in another website and one of the posters (name with-held) told me I was too perky blah blah blah. Shall I roll over and just die? NO. If the mood strikes me, I laugh. I want to laugh more. I do not want to always be in pain and down in the dumps. I do not want to feel sorry for myself..
If the truth be told, I feel like crap most of the time. My stomach is a mess these days. I deal with a lot of anxiety. I am tired so much. Never knowing if it is my sleep apnea, chronic fatigue, diabetes, hypothyroidism, fibromyalgia that is causing the fatigue. This is frustrating - VERY FRUSTRATING. I wish people understood where I am coming from.
My legs feel like I have 50-75 lb weights attached to them. Dragging me down - I still pick myself up and go somehow. I have NO idea where I get the energy or drive. I just know I do not want to GIVE IN to this junk. I try so hard to stay afloat.
I wish my life were different. I am starting to look older and it drives me crazy. I want to look nice for my husband. I care how I look. I prided myself on my looks in the past. I always looked pretty good. I found a wonderful man in 1985 and married him. He is 8 yrs younger than me. Again, I am looking pretty tattered these days but I do not have that stamina, I just don't. I cry, BUT I still find time to laugh in the midst of my crazy life today.
About Me
- K. Frankforter
- Hawthorne, CA, Southern California, United States
- Diagnosed with Fuch's Cornea Dystrophy, Cellulitis, Fibromyalgia, Degenerative Disc Disease (DDD), Sleep Apnea, Hypothyroidism, Peripheral Neuropathy, Type II Diabetes, Venous Insufficiency, Carpal Tunnel (both wrists), Rosacea, and Chronic Stasis Dermatitis, Fibro Fog and Foot Problems. You would never know I was ill or in extreme pain by looking at me. I dislike being sick, and it really bothers me when I have to cancel plans because I am not feeling well on that particular day.
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